Let me tell you, having a seriously ill family member brings out the best and the worst in people, and yourself. I know who my friends are and aren't. I know who my family is and isn't. There is an odd comfort found in accepting these things. The final realization that people you suspected were just really selfish actually are really selfish….its liberating. You no longer feel the need to bother with them and their details anymore. You find yourself able to focus on the people that do matter.
Anyway, right on the heels of this…its as if the music industry just knows when to release a new song to sum up my life….LeAnn Rimes releases a new track that really reflects how I feel this year.
So I'm quoting the lyrics here for ya'll to enjoy.
What I Cannot Change
LeAnn Rimes
I know what makes me comfortable
I know what makes me tick
And when I need to get my way I know how to pour it on thick
Cream and sugar in my coffee
Right away when I awake
I face the day and pray to God I won't make the same mistakes
Oh the rest is out of my hands
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can
I don't know my Father
Or my Mother well enough
Seems like every time we talk we can't get past the little stuff
The pain is self inflicted
I know it's not good for my health
But it's easier to please the world than it is to please myself
Oh the rest is out of my hands
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can
Right now I can't care about how everyone else will feel
I have enough hurt of my own to he
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can
